If I'm to talk about this with anyone, I'll be just labelled "crazy" or that it is just "my imagination" and I'm seing and imagin things....
I, honestly, just hope it is as I do know me well enought to know that, for the most I fight to keep ongoing what I've been doing, here, I'm not going to accept it at "any price".
And I'm not going to be just another "sheep in the pack". I can go along, because I understand why it must be so, in order of the whole be one but I'm not going to just say "yes sir..." blindly, whatever the cost might be.
More like a bean, when squeezed.... Probably it will "pop forward"... And, if such case unfortunelly happens, so will I.