I'm really mad!
I don't know (and probabilly willl never will!) if it is really a consequence of forgetting (of course I also forget things!) or that is just used as an excuse!...
It's so hard to avaliate intentions!... And the difference it does make!....
Fiona
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You know, you can have a feeling about it but is isn't the same as knowing it for certain...
Of course that when some one says you something you can only accept it by it's facial value; some time you don't know if it is trully the truth or not and even if that is not the issue, most of the time is almost impossible to know exactelly what was the intention that drove some one to say that or take that position....
And that MAKES a difference (for me, anyhow!....) ...
Most of the times its, at least AS MUCH IMPORTANT, the intention behind some action or sothing that is said that just what is done or simply said....
Parhaps is just a defect of mine...
I've been told countless times that I do not exist or I'm not from this world ( :-)) ) as I still beleave things must be done with convictions and the fact that I refuse to be hypochrit (even if I'm the one to be left in a bad situation) and I keep to what I think that is right and fair.
I'm not a fundamentalist (never was and never will be) and still think that is always possible comprimises providing there is will to negotiate them and all sides remain flexible enough...
But although I think that with my 35 years I'm still a young that has too much to learn yet, there are things I'm not going to spend to much time to fight for, at least again...
I always put myself and all my heart in what I do and have pride in doing everything well done. Sometimes I am succeed, others I fail and what I take from there is learning and experience; and go forward.
There is not, really (I think) any sense in beeing repeating always the same steps expecially when it is clear that it is not leading where some one wanted...
Yes, parhaps I'm a sort of a dreamer; a dreamer that still believes that is always possible to do something better, that still beleives that what sould hold things together should have to do with friendship and mutual respect and not only questions of self gain;
Ok, I might just be the "last of the dinossarus" as I've been called some times by someone...
And parhaps, there is some truth to it; if beeing coherent and keep saying that quality if far much more superior to quantity and that not always the fastest way is the one that gets to the greater distance (I understand the reason of the afirmation and it does deserve reflection uppon it) then, who knows, I might really be a living cat dinossour....
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I promise you a direct reply, by email, and will try to do it this weekend, ok?
Sorry if it didn't ended up to be an answer by this way but what I ended up writting was not the original idea but what came outside....
But the email is promised and I'll try to send it this weekend.