Last Tuesday's meeting was yet (again) inconclusive, this time because we had to stoped it as there was a meeting with a client scheduled and when they arrived, their's took priority, naturelly.
But is wasn't wasted time, though....
I have a very clear idea and view of what is necessary to do and how it should be done; the question is that, like usual, I'm involved in almost everything and all passes through me!
Delegate? Delegate in whom? The few things I do delegate quite often don't get done or not with all the necessary steps!
I don't have a definitive answer for that, but I'll keep trying to find one.
Now, I'm going out for a little bit to take a coffee!.
Will be right back.
This is something written in Octuber 13, 1999 and reading it again, I think that it should be posted here.
A lot has happened meanwhile but what's fundamental remains and I don't think today very much differentelly than what I did then,
I have 3 dufferent documents written almost at the same time which, as I re-read them again today, I'll decide if I'll post them here or not.
Anyway, this is the first one.
Mars' Day, Octuber 13, 1999
It's some what strange. I've written diaries before, even in english, but never in HTML and prepared to be posted online.
It's not that I'm affraid or "uneasy" with beeing exposed online; I am what I am and some part can and probabilly will be seen and other won't... What I am is not only what I write but what I write is part of what I am.
I'm only founding quite "interesting" what I've been thinking latelly... The idea of exposing part of myself to a wider "audience" has been growing and a long dorment seed seams to be re-borning again.
I have no dought that it has been influenced by a number of things I've been reading latelly; I do not pretend to be "Like a Rock" like Paul Simon says, and certeinelly I'm influenced somehow by my surroundings.
But I think that mostelly it has been here all along and it's only showing up again.
The time available for it is not very much and most probabilly it won't be done daily. It will have to be done whenever time is left for it. And most probabily it will cover my R&D field in first place. It can certainlly be usefull there and I think I will be able to find some time to make it there.
It will grow with time and no one can tell now whether it will live or die throughout the time. Well, we shall see it, won't we?.
So, I'll mark this day: Wendesday, 13 Octuber, 1999 by 5h00 AM.
I don't even know, right now, if this will ever be posted online or not but if it is, it will be done just the way it is written right now.
Honesty must be a corner stone if one pretends to do and build anything. And I'll keep up to it!
I have to go now as I still have work to be done here.
I had to write this; it's not fancy neither worked out... It's not literary nor noveled... It's just a palin text, like many other I've written troughout the already 34 years of my life.
Once again, I'm doing it in a diferente medium but I am the same and I think and feal as allways did - to be honest with ourselves we must be honest in what we think, do and write.
Good night to all, whoever you are and wherever you are!
The second will also be posted (they are just 2 not 3 as I thought as the first one is saved in 2 different files with different names...)
This second must have a little change, though.... It has an explicit name and I'm going to change it to remain whithin my original decision that I woun't give here any names unless their owners had explicitelly agreed upon it which is not the case -- I didn't even raised nor will raise the question.
A lot has passed since the time this has been written and although I feel quite the same way towards the fundamental issues, the way things are done has changed quite a lot.
So, I think that it is even more usefull to put here this "picture" over the past and post it here now.
Sunday, 17 Octuber, 1999
It seams that this will be the second time I'm writting my diary this way...
A lot has happened today. Not all the way I had planned it but it also doesn't always turn the way we have planned, anyway...
There are things I miss; some are easy to see and explain but others are quite dificult to point out and say exactlly which are they.
Parhaps this is just because I don't like to argue. I'm finding that a relationship is some what more complex that what I wanted or expected; problems are not easy to solve, mainly when someone is not able to do more. I think I'm the "the one to blame", so to speak, as I should be able to do more than what I do right know. I don't know how I could but never the less, I feel that I should...
The R&D work is going although I wished I had more time available to do it. But the time it takes isn't all lost!
The SmP Microprocessor Family is quite stable and I'm only working now in the co-processors as long I'm defining the mexFORTH VM-CORE Wordlist which, in it self, is the VTM (Virtual Threading Machine).
I know it could have far less instructions as some of them are just combinations of others but I feel that's important to mantain the basic model and to have instructions that are usefull building blocks for upper layers; Definitivelly, I'm not searching for the minimal processing machine but one that might lead to an efficient execution of code either emulated on today's microprocessors and with good capabilities of code cross compilation and trans-compilation, either in SmP hardware.
The most important point is to get some working elements as soon as possible although I know that working on this just on the free time, will make it go slowlly; I have presently no other choice!
As for EV's projects, the choice is made; FORTH (mainly through PFE) will be the main developing environment.
The deadlines are not far but I still believe that I can meet them.
Well, I'll go now as I have to rest a little as the day tomorow will be very full of work!
Good night to all, whoever you are and wherever you are!
A brief note, though:
PFE was left aside has GForth was more powerfull and more easily to port wherever...
That line of work has proved to me some things, anyway.
Firstly, it's really portable as the core it bases itself upon is very small and easy to understand
Secondly, I really should use a lot of more time to it. If it were anything else, in the time I could allocate for it, it would't even exist today!